.:^:. LAMIN .:^:. THURIN .:^:.

I really missed my father and mother. I have never seen to them until when i was 9 years old. But i have my grandparents ( Dr. U Yazar Hein and Dr. Daw Myint Myat Thu) who took care me when i was arrived to the Human Being. In my childhood i was thinking that my grandparents were be my parents. After i got my mom letter, I knew sperately to them as who are my parents and who are my grandparents. But i never changed my mind to call my grandparents like Dad and Mom until now. I call my parents like Daddy and Mommy.

One night, the moon was full and we smiled eachother. I was thinking about my parents. Why they didn't live me together and went far away from me. Did i have any sins for them??? But.............. My eyes started to wet with my tears. But i never drop off my tears to the ground. I mean i never crying. I want to be winner in LIFE-WAR. So i was got rid of my tear around my eyes. Time would be around 8.30pm. Someone's shade have fallen beside me. I looked up. At that time.............

"Thar Thar, I am ur Mom. I came back to u like i promise to u in the letter."

"M...O.....M......" I have never seen her before. But, I accepted her as my mother in my mind automatically. I huged her tightly and she also too. We were under the Moon light and it was gave a smile to both of us.

At that night, she slept with me and told me that we were living together when before she was gone abroad. It was 11months, 12days, 13hours and 25mins long. I knew that was definitely bcoz she wrote that time in her diary. I could read anything at all. I have ever read my mom letter and her diary which she gave it to me at my 10th years birthday.

I said to her "Why u don't remind me that u came to my home today. My grandparents also too. They didn't told me anything about u."

"Okay.... I will explain to u. My father don't allow to came back his home. He was angry with me until now. My monther was okay. She was comprehended to me. But ur granddad.........."

" Why my dad angry with u???"

"He was disagree to get married with ur daddy. And then, the behaviors of ur daddy and the Divorce Contract. Before i came to here, i was calling with phone to my mom. She said, she already told his hasband. But my father did not want to tell u that i came back to u. Thats why, u didn't know before i came to here. However, i am right beside u from now. I do the best for u." she said and kissed me and we were sleeping..........

The next morning, we were at coffee table, when we had coffee my granddad came and enjoied us. But he told nothing and staied quitely. He face look alike ... ... ..., {I don't know how to explain} I have never seen his face like that before. That was my first and last time seeing. And then, I have decided to tell him about something. So i said,

"Dad. . . .  ." He looked at me and i continued. "I have something ask to u."

" I am wating for u outside. Come and meet me at there." , he said and went to campus. I was follow him. My mom was still in the dinning room. At the campus, he was standing beside the swimming pool and thought something. I called him.

"Dad...."

"Oh u coming." he cried and said.

"What happen? Dad..."

"Nothing, so what u want to talk. Is it concer with ur mom???"

"Yes. It is. I want to live with my mom. Please allow to her that living to ur home."

"Who was forbided to her that living in my home??? She have gone my home by herself. I never said to her like Got Out from my home. That word is only for ur dad. I will never forgave him until i die."

"So, why are u angry with my mom???"

"No, I am not. She was afarid that what she did."

"Okay. Dad.... I want to live with my mom together in here. Can u agree with me???"

"Oh my grandson. U are really loved ur mom. I also loved my daughter more than u. She is only one daughter for me. But now, she has reached to second place. U are my first dearest. I am so proud of u. U know why??? U are my dearest boy. OKay I agree with u bcz of U......"

"Yah.....{I was jumped and shouted.} OKay. I love u too." and i kissed him.

"Mom............... Dad allow to live u here and he never angry with u."

"Thanks.............." I put my finger on her month. And i said,

"U never said Thank to me. This word is only for u from my mouth."

She hugged to me and cried. After that, she was run to her father and hugged and told alot by whisper.

If i told nothing to my granddad, that happiness life won't became. Because their unknown mind would lead them to live separately and hately. Now, my home was brightness with my grandparents and my mom and me. But.................................My Father.....???

All have been when my age was 9........

Next episode is "Divorce Contract"..........

Before long....Lamin Thurin

The weather was fine and gave pleasure to the two old couple who live in big house and wide campus, Pyin Oo Lwin. They thought something in the campus between white fog. They are U Kyaw Swar and Daw Aye Myat Min.

"Today, My son family will come to here, the house of deserted and desolate will be brightness. But it is for just a while. I never got happiness family life before i die. Look.... the green leave fallen from the tree. It counld not be, but now it was on the ground. Wait. I go and pick it up." she said and run away to there.

"Oh my dear... U ever face unhappiness things with or without me. How can i do for u, my dear." he though in my mind. He is really love her, but she never gave back her love to him as much as she can. So why they married???

Their love live like a rose and a butterfly, I think. People think rose and butterfly are beautiful creatures in our live. Yah, it is true. But they don't know that the two beautiful things can't combination at the same time. The rose will lost their nectars for living of butterfly. The butterfly always depend on the rose, but they have fake smiles eachothers. People think that they gave pretty things for them.{ I never think like that. I have ever though in the place of the rose and the butterfly. I don't know, how to explain to others what i got the result of thinking myself. U will know, if u think like me.}

"BRRING !!!.................BRRING !!!................", telephone ringing sound.

"Hello, ........... Yes. I am.................. What......................Where................

I will come right now........................"

"What happen??, Ko Kyaw" she said.

"We should go to Mandalay Hospital right now. Go and get dress. I will waiting for u in the car. Do quickly. Got me. I will explain u later. Now i should stay as unmoved my mind."

"Oh my God. What happen...........?" she said and went into her room.

Meanwhile, they ready to went to Mandalay. They were stay quite in the car on the way. Before dusk, they arrived to Mandalay General Hospital's emergency department. A girl was cried and run to them. She have got a little hurt on her right hand and leg. She said  "Granddad, Mom was dead. I think it was not. Am i right??? Tell me, granddad. Grandmom tell me." They stay quite and looked at the two gatch beds. One was the man who alive and a lot of wound and blood at the whole body. Another one is who under the white cloth. Daw Aye Myat Min full with tears in her eyes and looked them like unhappiness. And went to her son, U Aung Kyaw Zaw, closer and said, " What happen and How would be....? Oh my daughter, she was sleeping. So sweet and cute. (She looked dead body who Daw Twe Twe Aye and she kissed her)"

She remembered, a green leaf from her campus which follwen from the tree infront of her. But now the green leaf was on the ground.

• Daw Twe Twe Aye
• Age (30) Years Old
• Die in  ... /.... /1996.

A few weeks later, Kyaw Kyaw was fine and told what happen at that day to his parents. Before he told he was looking her daughter sadly. She was sitting on the bench in the campus of his parents, Pyin Oo Lwin. And he was kept on talking.

"That morning I was made some arrangement to came to here (Pyin Oo Lwin) with my wife. She have no mood to go outside. She said to me,

" I don't want to go outside, because I am scared about my bad dream, last night. In it, I was die by horrible accident."

"No, Let it be. It was just dream. Okay I am with u." I said to her paitiently. We departed from my home about 10.00am. We arrived Bago at 3.00pm. We had a lunch at that time and we took a rest for a while. I drove the car from bago with speedy. On the way, we seen just field and apron road. The sunset of that day which was last seeing the day light for her. She was stared around environment as lonely and hang heavy on her mind. A few minutes later, she fell a sleep. That was good for her. Bcoz of she have no pain anything at all when i got accident. She was been excellence death. At 10.30pm, I drove carefully and we were near to Mandalay boundry road. AT the T turn, I was turned left. I forgot to reduce speed. But the car was also on the T turn. The truck which carrid iron rod, was coming from the side of my wife. I have no idea, what could i do? And the time was not enough. AT that time,

"Dane......................" we hited it. I was mind for my daughter. She was been unconscious and i also too when i was saw her. I was remembered when i saw my dad with my daughter. And I was in Hospital and I turned around to my wife's gatch bed, she was asleep like last time i saw her. I was thought before like that, when she left from the hospital to Mandalay cametery. All were happened within 7 hours from when i got an accident. I have no more tear for crying. I have a lot of work to do for my son and daughter. I love my son more than my daughter. It is really for my son. But, I don't know he love me or not. All were happen because of me. This is not my son's mistake. But,. . . .. . . . . . . . . ."

{My dad didn't know how i love him in my heart. I have a dream it was we live together. They are My dad, mom, daughter of step-mother and me. I never thought my sister like step-mother's daughter. I always live with her like brother and sister. Now, I have ever became my dream true. But, we are living sperately. I mean my mom and dad is one side and me and my sister is one side. We are in the same country, but different places.}

The next episode is "My Mom and Me, first day of our meeting in my life."

Before long... ... ... Lamin Thurin

"Hay, U just leave my house right now."

"Plz, uncle try and listen to me what i say."

"I have no time to give for u, kyaw kyaw. Plz get out of my house. right now."

"No. I can't. If u don't listen to me, i won't go anywhere."

"Okay, If u don't leave urself, I will do something u to got out my house."

He stop arguing and he have decided to got out. But he was not satisfied for arguing with my granddad. He got out and drove roughly. The next evening, he came back to my home and found out to me. He saw me and came closer to me. What should I do? I have no time to made decision. So he caught me and carried on his arm.

"Thar Thar. U know who i am?"

"No."

"I am ur father."

"Really?"

"Of course, what kind of question u asked to me my son?"

"So, Are u U Aung Kyaw Zaw?"

"Oh my dear, U knew my name. Yah my son. I am"

"So U are hasband of my mom, Daw May Myat Mon??"

"Its ........."

"Tell me"

"Yah it was."

"So U are my dad. I am so happy."

"Oh my dear........"

And he hugged and kiss me. At that time.................

"Kyaw Kyaw. U know what i said to u. Now u get out my home."

"Okay Uncle. I will got out with my son right now."

"No way. U leave urself. Don't make silly urself. And give me back my grandson. He is not concern with u."

"What are u talking about? He is my son and he is my half of blood. May be with u. U have no concern with him more than me. U understand???"

"Tork.....U are...."

And i did not know what can i do. I jumped off him and run away to my granddad. And he carried to me and went upstairs. My dad was got out himself. What happen when they meet eachother? They have big problem?? Why my dad came to me when i was 5??? 

My mom said to me that I should have dealing with him politely and wellcome.

How could be? My granddad always said get out to him when he came to me.

What could i do????

One day, My grandmom and me went to shopping mall. And walked around it. He also too. I saw him first with a woman and a child who younger than me and around 3 years old. First i was afarid to call him. But i hear my mom said to me. So i run and call him. So he carried me and said

"Thar Thar, Did u came to here with whom?"

"with Mom."

"U Mom?", He said as suprised and stared around.

"Yeah, she is overthere"

"Oh, ur grandmom." 

"Yah."

"Thar Thar, she is ur sister namely Nyo Myat Twe. And she is ur........"

"Aunty, My name is Daw Twe Twe Aye.", the woman said to me and gave smile to me. My dad was not think what he said. He also smile but not live smile. I didn't know, How they relative eachother? 

My grandmom came to us and said to my dad,

"Kyaw Kyaw, U should give me my grandson. I never said like my hasband. But u should give me back him. I have to go."

"Okay, Aunty here u are."

"Okay i will go. Take care urself."

And she left with me. I turned around to my dad and made hand wave to them. I never forgot that day. I have ever seen the woman who is my dad second wife, only a time in my life. In my mind, I want to live like my sister. Her dad and Mom are with her forever. But My wish is not become. The god didn't accept my pray.

One day, They were going to Mandalay for my dad's bussiness. On the way, they got

AN ACCIDENT..........

" D A N E. . . . . . .  .. .AARRRRRRR....................." 

Before long... ... .... Lamin Thurin

When that day I hear your voice
I have some special feeling
Let me always think I don't wanna forget you
I remember at the day
You are always on my mind
Eventhough I just can think about you
If the day in the future
This love will becoming true
I've never change my mind that I will love you forever
I don't care how fool it is
I will let my dream come true
I will tell you something I wanna let you know, I let you know

I love you, loving you, as the mouse love the rice
Even every day has storm, I will always by your side
I miss you, missing you
I don't care how hard it is
I just want you be happy
Everything, I do it for you.
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Written by... ... ... Lamin Thurin

Once I had a heart of stone

 For it had surley lost its home

 It could not love or wanted too

But in my life, then came you. 

The stones began to fall away

As happiness began to fill my day

 A feeling so sweet and special too

Could this be love, I pray is true.

My heart now sings a song of love

 For I know that it was  sent from above

 My heart is warm, there is no cold

 Hard no more, but with wings of gold.  

 It soars above the sky so high

Sometimes I think of why and cry 

My heart now sings a loving song

For the part of me I thought was gone.

The gift that you have given me

Is so important, can't you see

No more sadness or being alone

For now my heart returns to home.

 Written by... ... ... Lamin Thurin

Life is an opportunity, benefit from Sleeping.
Life is a beauty, admire it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is life, fight for it."

Written by ... ... ... Lamin Thurin

In this world full of hurt and pain,

I need someone who would help me through the rain.

To comfort me when Im sad,

Doing everything just to make me glad.  

In this world I need a Brave Knight,

Who would never give up any fight.

A knight who would dry away my tears,

Telling me to overcome my fears.  

A knight who loves me for who I am inside,

With him there's nothing more I need to hide.

A person who will still be standing strong,

Eventhough everything has gone wrong.  

I need someone who is willing to give me more,

Someone I can call my Knight In Shining Armor.

Written by... ... ... Lamin Thurin

From the glowing embers of your spirit

Came a little warmth of your love

Together we set it in a cozy little spot

Safe from the world up above.

Then a soothing breath from your lungs

Helped to ignite the flame

 On that lonely candle

 In the core of my soul.

 As time passed day by day

 Conflicts caused great winds to blow

 But you cupped your hands around it

And it just flickered with a brilliant glow.

 They say that nothing is forever

 But I don't believe that's true

That little candle in my heart

Is a loving peace from you.

Written by... ... ... Lamin Thurin