Blog of "LOST"

Got to learn how to breathe from outside....;-(

I think i decided what i am going to do......

Down down down down

Cannot get over with all the lies from before...Lies from before / careless of my feeling before ...all the things from the past plus what i see and feel, .make me scared, insecured and want to run, run, run......

please give me courage to run.

Sweet couples!!! I am the real outsider.... I can tell, i can feel it...

Do whatever make you happy!!" friend said..

But the problem is scare and worry is more than happiness due to lack of confidence.... Why? So confused of what i should do.... Why started over again when you are almost there? Stay or Run? Fighting with my own will..:-(

trying to be considerated, but, mis-understanding never end! life is suck!

I love getting drunk..... The best way to forget everything and have a good night sleep.......ha hahahahahaha....aaaarrrrhhhhh!

The best thing i have had in this life was the thing that made me suffered the most before and I am extremely scared it will happen again. . My heart wants to keep it, but my self-conceious keeps telling me to let go ......... What should I do?

I really don't know if i am really enjoying the water because the side effect is quite unbearable. I don't know if i have the energy to continue.

The more i love, the more i care. The more i care, the more i afraid to pollute the water in perfect condition by playing with it. The more i love the more i suffer.

Knowing I am going to be drown again and again, I am still playing with water.

I don't care how many times I am going to drown or even drown to die, I will never regret as I love water.